Its 07:59 o clock in the morning, Effi; Switzerland and Betty is already up...she was already up for over an hour, sitting by the computer basically doing nothing this morning. Every other morning since two weeks back she has been up just after 7 to make her schoolwork...summerschoolwork...yeah..can you believe it? SUMMER- SCHOOL-WORK??? WTF?..hmm.. yo have vacation from school and than comes a note saying you are supposed to do schoolwork for until the school begins again..

Its so normal nowadays that everyone just thinks its normal. But how can that be normal? Why do we want to live like this? Hey, you have vacation, appart from the litle issue that you actually have to do just a liiitle work too... so you cant really relax and enjoy because you have to do this stupid thing.

And what about the people who whants to go travelling on their vacation. Yeah, someone whants to go to the Bahamas and has to bring a bunch of books and a lap-top and stay at a hotel whit internet connection so they can do their SUMMER-SCHOOL-WORK..and if they dont do that you dont pass the SUMMER-SCHOOL-do it yourself COURS, and have to stay in school a extra year.

And AHAAA! what about the poor souls that goes to work in the summer to get money to go to school.

And hey....yeah...when we ones started we can add a bit more shit to this...what about the difference between the time when our parents whent to school and now? huuuh? Yeah, betys school expects everyone to own a Digital camera and if you dont have a computer you are basically screwed...and if you dont have internet at home theres no use of having a computer... 

What happens if your camera breaks? Huh? you have to buy a new...and afford it too. And than the computer...you have to afford tha too..and all the programs you need..and aditional to hat you also have to have 100 USB sticks so you can save all the pictures, files aso...

Yeah..pisses Betty of...feel free to comment..YEAH...in a couple of years we for sure need a flying car to pass the tests in school..yeah..shit

All these amazing weekends are like fuel for you to keep on living the everyday life. Since leaving Finland, or even some time before leaving Finland cirka 11 months ago Betty didnt have a everday life. Her world has been filled whit surprises, happenings, people, naturewonder and all kinds of stuff you usually dont have int your everyday life.  She even had the luck to fall in love.

Sometimes you wonder of all these stuff where real. Did they really happen to you? Betty feels like the time she had in Rapperswil happend ages ago, like she became 10 years older during this time away from Finland.

In only tree weeks shes about to leave this place and go back to try to live a everyday life. she isnt sure if she knows how to do that anymore, to leave that kind of life she sees her friends living back in Finland. She has been so happy and filled whit luck of being here..now when the ends near its tearing her appart fills her whit fear and helplessness. She finds her imagening what it will be like going to school, getting a job, moving to an empty appartement.

But, theres happy things too keeping her over the surface. The tought of that everything is going to work out for the best. That all she is now hopeing and dreaming for  is going to happen and she can feel safe whit whatever that comes.

However its going to bee it is all just a part of learning life.  

Thanks fo reading, feel free to comment. Hugs from Betty

So its bin a while folks but now Betty felt it was good time to tell about whats going on whit her life.

As you might remember, betty moved away from the au pair family in Basel and when to live whit her flower boy. Her parent were i swizerland and also they got to meet her love. Everything whent surprisingly well even if Betty dad doesnt speak a word in English. Flowerboy semed happy about it too.

Since that Betty has been living whit him. In his house. A lot of things has happend. Every weekend has been a litle story for itself.

 There was a weekend when the couple whent together to Tessin, close to IItaly to spend some time camping in the green mountians. They left on friday evening, there was a thunderstorm going on at the time. Thay arrived at the deserted campingplace at 10 in the evening, soaken weat. Betty and flowerboy made they way up the hill to a empty mountaincabine, the owner was away. Since the rain was soo heavy they desided to sleep on the terrass of the house.

The lightnings that night where spectacular. Betty lay for a long while in her sleepingbag watching as the lightnings made the whole garden glow up. It was a bit cold and weat but but soo beautiful and veeery romantic.

The next day the sun came up and the couple made their way down to the river Matcha. they spent the day down in the valley, swimming in the river and enjoying their time together. Betty loved every bit of it. Sunday was cliffjumping time and flowerboy convinced a scared and nervous Betty to come out to the (at some points) 20 meter high cliffs around Matcha. He even got her to jump (okey, not from 20 but from a lower level. The water was icecold and it made you gasp after you hit the surface. It was crazy. Betty felt she could do anything after making that first jump.

Thanks for reading, kisses from Betty
 

Here's a list of the books BB read during her stay in Muttenz (15 February- 15 June) If she's fast she will finnishe one more before leaving.

Dont read                                      OK                                       Good

-Eclipse,                             -Thinking of you,     -The timetravellers wife,
Stephanie Meyer                  Jill Mansell                Audrey Niffenegger
                                                                                       
-Mannen under trappan,
 Marie Hermansson      -Chasing Harry Winston,           
                                              Lauren Weisberger
                                                                                      -A place called here,                                              -Inte enklare än så,           Cecilia Ahern
                                           Kajsa Ingemarsson                                                                   -The memorykeeper's daughter
                                                                                            Kim Edwards

                                                                                            
                                                                              - Angels and Deamons
                                                                                                Dan Brown

Last weekend was one of  these weekendes when you felt like something whent wrong in the beginning and than when you try to fix it it only gets worse and worse...and than you try to fix it even more but since you allready felt so bad you end up screwing your chances to fix things.
And than time is up and you didnt have enough time to fix it completely and the weekend is over and will be printed in history as "the bad weekend". And it feels like shit.

But what can you do when things like this happen?
If you would have spent the time when you where trying to fix everything instead on trying to forget the misstake or bad thing that happend you would have had more chances to make erything better allready during the weekend.

This is called learning by doing..see Betty knows now that ignoring the stupid things and worrying about stuff and being mad and angry just steals from the time when you are supposed to be happy, have fun and enjoy your time. She learned it a couple of times and maby this time it actually sunk in.. You see she met someone, a amasingly positive person that she thinks already have learned enough by doing about this stuff.

And when you meet a peron like this you suddainly find yourself seeing all your thoughts and thinking in a new light and maby you also can learn that life could be much happier if you dont think too much about your problems...See, all that time could be spent on makeing new, happy memories..memories that helps you overcome the problems when you actually have to face them.

So, even from this weekend came something good. So we get over it, and remember the good moments..which there where plenty of also.

Thanks for reading, have a nice week

Sometimes you hear something or see something that you think sounds particulary good or just something that makes you think or smile or just feel good. We listed here things that Betty heard and liked or things she thinks are important. This issue might never be completed so feel free to come back to see if it gets refreshed every now and than..

Some notes that someone said:

"Love eachother even when you hate eachother"

"What doesnt hurt is not worth it"

"Tell people you love them as long as they still are there to listen"

Things that Betty likes:
Mountains, Lakes, Snow, Men, Bags, Colours, Stars and seeing the milkyway, Birds, Thunder, Rain on the roof, Swiss- German language, Muscles hurting after work out, Sauna and swimming and having a beer in the Sauna, HUGS, cats, strawberrys and rabarber, dancing so you forget everything else, swimming in the ocean,  her mums lingonberry jam, camping alone, morningcoffee whit newspaper, snowboarding in soft new snow, getting a message on the phone, getting a letter in the mail, the smell of rain, her grandmothers pancakes, shopping, having breakfast together whit someone.
 
INVENTIONS

Special and smart humanmade invention Betty likes:
1. The bike (Velo)
2. The train
3. The library
4. Chewinggum
5. Tampons
6. The camera
7. Sunglasses (okey, other glasses too)
8. Painting coulours
9. GoreTex

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Next day was cleaning and driveing home day. M took the motorbike whit H and I got a lift whit the partypeople (dont remember their names). We drove to Bellinzona to see the next before last game of FC Zuerich this season of the swiss Supper league. A lot of fans where there and te FCZ fan section was behind a high iron fence so you couldnt see the game proparly.  I met M and we whent together into the crowd to see the game. It was really fun and I felt like a part of the gang, singing and jumping to support the team. And I was there whit M which was the most important thing.

And the game ended 1-0 for FCZ and it was a big party at the stadium. The next team in the league, Basel had lost their game o it meanth Zuerich won the whole league. The fans whent crazeee....and than kaos. Everything would have been totally fine but a lot of the fans climbed over the iron fence and ran out on the field for party. Than the police thought there was hooligans and they put out teargass and it was frightening and unneccesary. And I lost  M somewhere, he'd jumped over the fence too and I got soo scared and my heart was about to stop when I finally saw him again and I was mad and releaved at the same time.

But everything calmed down really fast and everyone got to see the team coming out on the stadium to greet the fans and it was nice. It was huge, and I loved being there at the moment.

After it was ment for us to take the special train for FCZ fans and luckely we missed that train...(even though M tried to get me to jump in through the window and throw my bag in also, God knows how that would have ended)  because it was full of drunk people and if I had taken that train I think I had never got to Basel back again =)

I was home in Muttenz at half past 23 pm and soo tired. And than i tought I cant wait until July when Im free from living in Basel and I dont have to think about timescedule anymore or stupid stuff like not having passport and drinking or not and so on... I really would have loved to join the FCZ party the whole night in Zuerich, to bad it was sunday and monday was just another working day in Basel...where most of te people where really down and grumpy for having lost the chance to win the league.

I stop now, I go to the store for a beer and than home...Thanks FCZ for a nice football experiance!!!!! Hurray!!!"



And thats all folks...hope you ejoyed a differnet reading this time...

 

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The next  day was Sathurday, and while M whent to the beech whit the new friends I found myself being asked to go for a ride on H:s motorbike. Even though I was scared to death from the beginning I took the offer as a chalange and got dressed in "bikeing clothes" (looked like my dad when he goes to do snow- work in the winter at minus 20 degrees) and jumped up behind H on the bike.

At first I was so scared we had to stop at the roadside. I thought all the time I was going to fall backwards of from the bike. When I, after a while, got the point whit example how the bike accelate, it got much better. For the whole 4 hours we rode around in the green hills and whit the highway and by the lakeside before going to the beech to meet the others. Than it became difficult whit the going back to te hause...=S

There wasnt enough space in the one car that was whit on at the beech so one of the guys whent up whit H to get the other car. When he came back noone wanted to leave yet. I was wet, sweaty and God knows what from driveing around whit the bike and than swimming and I was desperate for a shower and toilet and eating. I just had enough and thought okey so I walk up to the house..(like I havn't done stuff like that before)...the way was as long as my schoolway in Finland so I didnt really think about it as a problem. But than M got mad because he thought I cant walk alone and he wouldnt let me so he walked whit me and than he was mad.. and I got sad becaus I dont like to make people mad because of me.
And I thought maby he really wanted to go home whit me instead of staying there on the beech and maby he was to proud to admit that. I liked to think so. =)

We where at the house really fast and there we met H. He was reading on the balcony. We decided to go to a local litle pub for a snack and something to drink.

H is a fantastic person. Something he said made me think and a bit release that people should winn on our differances, the more different we are the more qualities we have together and that should make us strong and rich. Wonder if it isn like this for everyone out there. I allways felt good after talking to H. What a great guy.

When we walked back to the house the others where allready there shouting on the balcony. We installed ourselves a  the balcony beneath the others and drank some Grappa and listend to H telling crazy stories about his travels and life. It was one of the best moments during the whole trip. After a while H whent to sleep and M wanted to join the others. I also whent upstairs but only after about 30 min I felt completely outside and wanted to go to sleep.  I whent to the groundfloor, red my book and lied there for 3 hours whitout sleep waiting for M. I felt like a idiot for being s unsocial but I just was too proud and also too tired to go back upstairs.

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The house was in the litle town Cavaglio and it was made of stone and it had tree levels. Wine was growing around it and climbing up, coverin the walls and the balconies. We where supposed to sleep on madrasses on the floor at the groundlevel. The vegetaion was fantastic, cactus and aloe and God knows what was growing here and there and everywhere. A hammock was hanging on the first floor balcony. The view over the valley was beautiful.Like you would have been kidnapped in your sleep and wake up in Peru or something like that. It was green as far as your eyes could reach and I forgot all the earlier frustration in one secound. (I was also quite embarrassed for acting so stupidly so It was good to forget about it as soon as possible) 

We had dinner whit spagetti and redwine and after I fell asleep in the arms of M and I felt like the happiest person alive.

 The next morning I was up early and sat on the balcony reading my book. The sun was already hot at 10 am. After breakfast we decided to walk down to the river in the valley. On the way down through the forrest you could hear rastling everywhere in the bushes from lizzards running around. We reached the river. The water was icecold! I go in 3 times, the guys werent that hard. =) We could se snakes swimming in the water and there was also a frog couple making babies. Than O:s dad H arrives whit car and he took us down to the lake for eating icecream at a beechcafe...


In the evening more of O:s friends arrive at the house. It semes from the beginning that they only came for drinking and sitting on the balcony...ouh, yes the next day they actually sat on the beech by the lake the whole day...just like all the other tourists. I could not have cared less and I had no interest whatsoever to try to fallow their drunk discussions in swiss- german.  I read my book and kept away. This was a pitty since M semed to like the company of these people, and I sat alone reading my book and beeing a bit sad. And that together whit not getting any sleep when they were so loud, ofcourse didnt make me anymore happy about having all these drinking people sitting in the same house..

It is the 25 of May 2009

"I am laying in the grass in the Botanical garden of Basel. I just finnished reading a book called "THE CURIOUS INCIDENT OF THE DOG IN THE NIGHT - TIME" (Mark Haddon). Madly good book that makes you both irritated and laughing at the same time. But yes, I wanted to write since i ones again had a fantastic weekend. I dont know where to begin so I begin from the beginning:

In the beginning of last week I recieved a phonecall from M, he asked if we wanted to go to friend O:s house in Tessin for the weekend. I said yes without a doubt. Allready Wednesday evening I got on the train to M because Thursday was a holyday and I'd gotten free on Friday. After this it got a bit messy... O called 20 minutes before the train was about to leave on thursday and said that the hause was in Italy. I never really got o know why we didnt know that from before but anyway we than had a problem because neither of us had a passport to take whit. I got really sad, we had packed bags and everything was ready to go. But whitout passports it wasn't going to work so i decided just to forget about it and settle for a normal weekend...

Than soudainly the guys thought we still would make a try over the border and  whit car. I thought that was the most stuppid idea ever and started to call everyone idiots and asking them how they will getover the border whitout the stuppid PASS!? I saw the scene before my eyes: how I have to call the family in Muttenz to tell that I sit on the border to Italy whitout passport... Any way, I decied that a weekend in Italy whit M is worth it and I also decided to climb into the car and join the cast of idiots. =) And of we whent, but I was still sad and worried and I didnt want to talk to anyone so I stayed silent all the way to Locarno where I had to say something since I had to go out for a pee. (And after I though I was a idiot doing that (beeing silent) since I would have loved to sit in the car kissing the whole way instead of reading my book)

We reached the border and nothing happend ofcourse, and I got to know I dont even need a passport to Italy, only my driverslicence...So the whole mess in the beginning was for nothing! FUCK THAT

Than we met O:s Father H close to the lake Maggiore and we whent shopping and than we drove up to the green mountains to the house.

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